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I CLEARED IT!!

2009-08-24T16:05:00.000+08:00

busy week finally ended :)
finally i can put one thing aside. :)
finally can sleep at my hse :)
been staying over bee's place for the past 3 nights.
as i've Dlesson everyday, early morning. it just 3 mins walk away. :)
compare to dunno how many km. and im sure i cant wake up.

i cleared my TP today!! i'm so proud of myself man. :)
one time pass for everything! which i never thought i would. :)
maybe it's just that i have daddy's one time pass "yu chuan"
i really salute to daddy man. he has all the different classes of license.
it's all one time pass. he's so into vehicles.
the only one he doesn't have is for three wheels bike :)
too bad.. he wasn't in time to teach me what are the steps to take to buy a car.
i'm totally noob for cars.
i hope he tell me in my dream. :)

im free from DL now :) which i spend like 2k? ZZzzz

Class tonight :( i dont intend to go man. totally no mood to study man.

i wanna go out for feast to celebrate!

think i gonna gain alot more weight n fats!!

driving ard for supper is the very basic thing to do for newbie.

:))

2009-05-27T16:38:00.000+08:00

For that moment, i don't know you. :)) i ain't you. You never spare a thought for me. The crowd were staring. Everyone is looking i hint you to stop you just don't give a damn to me. You ain't the one who face the crowd you ain't a lady. You will never know it feels. Despite telling you how i felt, your reply ; ok what who cares. The day really f up.

2009-04-13T13:02:00.005+08:00

it's been quite some times i didn't update :)

here are all the pics :))

WARNING!! THIS IS A VERY LONG POST!

start from Adel Birthday :)
have it at MAN's U CAFE & BAR

Birthday girl. oPPs. shld be lady :) haha!

i'm sure everybody love this!

head back to man u for devils mud pie after meeting, it was real dissapointing..
Mr original chef where are you??

went to bright hill to pray for daddy n grandpa.
it reminds me of everything, every moment.
it was sososo sad to see daddy's pic on it.
till now..we cant really accept it. it was so sudden.
cant help..everyone jus broke down.

very quickly we packed our emotion. and started to camwhore on the way back home as well as at home. :)

The THREE S!!

050409, SUN. CHERVONS.

Sharon, Andy

Bebee : Bibi

SHARON as at 050409.

the very next day . .

060409, MON. SGH A & E.

been throwing up evey single thing i ate and drink for a week.
DOC was saying jus treat it as a gastric flu and we see how it goes.

090409, THUR.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VONN!!

had it over at billy bombers. :)
all of us ordered the same food.
all of us couldn't finish it. LOL.

von got to rush off. jen got to meet bf.
3 of us. . starbucks.

NON-STOP!!

~ENDED FOR THE DAY~
THE VERY NEXT DAY. .

100409, FRI. SGH A&E.
DRIPS :S

suppose to admit to hospital on that day as i didn't get any better but worse.

But i refuse to admit. im so surprise they've got this "REFUSE TO ADMIT TO HOSPITAL WARD" FORM and i just signed it. gained my freedom! woot!

110409, SAT. PS.
movie. secret recipe.

FAV!

FAV!
im more than happy that bee actually allows me to eat my fav. which is quite saltish. :) when i wanna order my fav. i was still thinking "aiya, jus order only. see if he says anything." who knows he agreed. :D

but there goes my popcorn salted. :(

120409, SUN.

Had hong kong cafe with bee, andy and ree. while waiting for others to come. :)

* the above was all taken in the toliet while guys are out there waiting wondering "y so long?? "

chervons.

the guys are super crazy! unfortunately i cant capture those scene due to extreme LOW batt.

a total of 6 guys, 1 gal.

:) thats a long long post i know. thanks for enduring it till the very last.

GOOD DAY!!

2009-03-30T23:27:00.002+08:00

F* OFF MAN BITCH!! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.(if you're reading this)

I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY THERE ARE bitches OUT THERE LIKE YOU.

what's so good about doing that??
does it really benefit's you?
maybe you feel GrEAT about it.

BUT by doing so it doesn't help YOU to win the game.
cos I've already WON it.

so ya.. continue it if you want.
i will be always there to entertain. :)

2009-03-23T10:59:00.004+08:00

Back from pulau ubin. went there for 2D1N with steph,khang,bee,ME!

when we reach pasir ris, it started to rain, so we took a cab to changi ferry terminal. there was no one else there waiting to board the boat cos we went at late night. so we gotta book the whole boat.

getting there..

khang;steph

khang is outside of the boat. the black portion is the sea man.

all shop was close. no bicycle to rent, no transport. nothing there.
only transport was by own feet. the guys was trying to find what they call it "GOOD SPOT" and bee was trying to find what he call it "CONFIDENT SPOT" for fishing it was like army road march. dunno how many km i've walked. on the way we met 2 wildboar! first time in my life. they ran across the road that we were waking along. luckily we stopped at a safe distance.

after walking here n there. we ended up at the jetty when we first stepped on. LOL.
while fishing, waiting for tml..

my fav. bee brought it along for me :)

tired looking face..

next morning i was so excited of cycling.
indeed it was fun but tiring.
The mosquito there jus doesn't seems to know the word "FULL"
uncountable bites on my leg now. ache on butt due to rocky path. :(

Our little home :) this was set up by me myself n i. with a little help from the guys for holding for me. lol.

The 3 ah bengs..

Steph the always ready one.

i look so small in size..

heading home...

i will probably think twice before heading there again.

2009-03-18T20:41:00.005+08:00

updates updates..
fellows gf have finish their exams...so what are you gals waiting for?? LETS MEET UP!!! CAN'T WAIT TO MEET U GALS MAN. :P

been to quite lots of place recently.
here are the photos :D

As usual..cold rock :)

on the way to fishing..there were plenty lots of stray dogs on the road. all the same colour (black brown) except for this...black n white. which look exactly like my late dog.
i miss her sosososo much. F* the AVA who actually put her to slp.

Chervon with sis, fajin, bebee n ME!
Han's @ chervon
this my dinner thou it looks more like breakfast. :D

PLAY TIME!!

The WOW!! Look. LOL.

big machine-SMALL LITTLE GIRL

Went to chong pang(yishun) to have nasi lemak :) with my currently whole family :)
i miss yishun man...use to hang ard there as office is there..
where i first met bebee.. the feeling is gd to return to there for dinner.
then headed to ...

MARINA BARRAGE

Mummy challenge me to run this long bridge with her!! i was totally amaze!! so i ran with her. haha.it was such a joke mummy ran faster than me!! i'm weak!!

while i cam whore, grandma got interested....

so...

here's grandma and me :))

Today's Menu...(( Cheese Pasta ))
Chef for the day: Ms Sharon Tan

LOL!

while i was cooking...busy man..always...

good night everyone..:)
take care.

2009-03-07T16:10:00.003+08:00

i miss this.. . daddy use to buy this for me n sis in carton. :'(
any volunteer now??

got hook on to cold rock recently.
3 times a week, fats are building up. i need to exercise, seriously.

I'm planning to get some savings plans to save up for my future.:)
Why savings plan? normal savings acc u can have the freedom of spending it.
which is very not suitable for me. In order to really make me save, i'm
considering UOB Life maxi cash plan. it's a great plan.
It not only help me to save, also comes with coverage as well. afterall, it benefits me alot.
I'm NOT promoting it here as part of the bank. jus to share my view. through my dad's incident, i've learn that coverage is very important if u love and care for your loves one. :)
Start small. :)

passed. :)

2009-03-06T20:46:00.002+08:00

GOOD NEWS!!

I cleared my driving theory test!!
1 time cleared. woots!
so excited bout driving.
too bad ytd after my test the lic side had closed.
got to go back again to do my PDL.
hopefully i can get my lic by end of this yr. :)

heading to cold rock at holland V later :)

I'm getting things done 1 by 1. :)

Thanks bee for guiding me thru. :)

i wanna achieve more!

I'm BACK!! Updates :))

2009-03-03T00:28:00.002+08:00

updates updates :))

i've plenty lots of plans in mind, but i've no time for it. :(

few updates:
I'm Going HONG KONG on 26 Jun for a 5d4n with bee! i'm sososo excited about it.
can't wait to "mai dong si! chi dong si!"
i might be moving hse soon. . .not yet confirm.
daddy's 100 days will be on this sun. i wanna buy lots of things for him :)(hopefully he receive it)
I've pass my Basic Theory back in jan. first try :D Final theory test on this thurs!! yet to start studying for it :s. pray for me :))

went holland V ytd with bee for cold rock and crystal jade:P
and of cos..there gonna be pictures to post as well:)

I wanna meet up with GFs!!
Xin bday is coming i've taken leave for it :)
shopping and KTV session gfs??

hmm.. i shall end here. . hopefully i will update soon :))

take care peers!

LOves.

2008-09-25T21:25:00.006+08:00

this was suppose to be update a week ago bt couldn't. ya so now.

Finally a meet up for sentosa n dinner with gfs :))

been swimming n tanning :))

after so long since we gt a long nice talk.
sorting out everything got us closer.
a very touching pic that i saw. :D
i'm so happy for them.

last but not least, presenting the 5 ladies :))

stay close forever. :))

*confuse over what u've said, it didnt seems like.

for me, now things are getting on track now :)
slowly, one by one. :))

2008-09-20T00:56:00.002+08:00

nothing much to update except pics pics nn pics.
catching taiwan drama recently.
went for swim ytd n today. :)) finally i'm a LITTLE tan!

after everything i told u, we are still e same except for status wise haha.
take it easy alright. :)

pics. . pics. .
overdue as well. :))

after tanning :))

overdue..genting pics.

have a good night rest :))

take care :))

2008-09-03T14:04:00.003+08:00

meet up with xin ytd for coffee bean. :))
after chatting for so long.
we found out that we really miss sec sch life.
all e fun that we had.
and of cos e people involve. :))

was planning to have a class outing.
hopefully we still hav their number in use. :))
its been 2 yrs seen we grad.

bt meet up wouldnt be that soon.
as some of them are still having exams.
some working.
some mia.
each of us hav our own life.
lets get one day off frm our busy life n get tgt alright!

I MISS E FUN!
I MISS U GUYS!

MEET UP SOON. :))

will be heading to KL and maybe to Genting later.
back on sat. :))
i dont have any roaming, so contact me when im back. :)

enjoy. .enjoy. .while i can :))

2008-08-27T15:03:00.004+08:00

i gonna be bored to death i guess so.
nw NO WORK NO SCH.(but still hav income) :))
kinda like a gd deal. bt boredom kills.
frens are all having exams.. :((

Went for Tim Sum buffet ytd at Dragon Gate Rest. with baby.
We didnt perform ytd and left with super lot of food.
and bee gotta pay extra for e food left.
i think im not suitable to have any buffet kinda style.
ala carte will suits me better :))

im in a holiday mood yea.
i wanna travel travel!!
jus came back frm cruise.
heading jb this week.
heading to KL next week.
and hopefully bangkok or phuket trip coming up next.
it was a very instant decision.
jus mention n decided immediately.
and hotel being booked. LOL.
couldn't believe i was so despo to travel.

gonna be busy on sept.
plenty of chalets to go.
gfs! meet up after exams alright!

SEE YOU GUYS SOON!!!

CARES.

2008-08-19T12:06:00.002+08:00

IT'S BEEN MORE THAN A MTH!
im here to update to get rid of those fungus.

getting closer with him.
ever since we get tgt, been to cruise, twice to jb, n he went china.
its like only 1 mth plus n alot of things happen.
plannig to go bangkok as well. awww..i really wish to go bangkok.
shop shop shop.

IM 19!!
my bday was a very great one.
celebrated in 3 diff places.
East coast with..
THANKS ALOT BF,GF,GFBF,F,FGF. (lol. all e short form.)
i love e present frm gf!!
it's really very me.LOL!
"thanks gfs who bath me with that fancy soap uh!!"
lol. and e water war.
totally drench to e max!!

KBox with sisters n bf. :))

make me dance on e sofa!!

Cheesecake baked by my sis! :))

so sweet...thanks..:))

LOVES.
pictures in friendster. :))

2008-07-17T23:27:00.002+08:00

FINALLY IM HERE TO UPDATE YEA!
its been mths since i last update yea.

i've gt lots lots of details to update.
so i gonna cut short everthing.

after withdraw frm sch, gt back to work with them.
really enjoy it. having fun every single day.
thanks to u guys! iloveu guys max!
*prawning
*gotham
this 2 are e best!

*it was hard to forget bout u after a long long rs.*

after mths finally meet up with gfs and gfsbfs.lol.
our craziness filled e day.
*pictures to be update*

for the past 1 & a half mth, our bonding became so close.
its like 1 whole family.
learn bout someone life story. it really make me reflect alot.

dad is in hospital nw. quite critical. worried.

THERE IS A DAY WHEREBY EVERYONE WAS SO SCREWED UP.
everyone met with problem.

MY FAV HP WAS STOLEN!
BEING A KIND SOUL ISNT A GD THING.
I LENT MY HP TO HER SHE BLOODY HELL TAKE MY HP AND RUN OFF.
ITS A LONG LONG STORY.
. . .
IT E END SHE WAS CAUGHT N I GT MY HP BACK.
BT MY 700 PICS IN MY HP WAS GONE BY 600!
SHE SOLD MY HP!
LONG STORY HW I GOT BACK MY HP.
**E HERO OF THE WHOLE THING WHO HELP ME 'MOGAN'
THANKS ALOT FOR UR HELP**
N NOT FORGETTING JAI N BABY.

since 28 June 2008

he's a guy with a very gd heart & a very gd character :)

he n mogan currently in china.
they gone for business trip for 4 days.
i miss them so much.
miss e laughter!
n hw we assume close things. haha!
come back real soon k.

hope u guys are fine there.
baby spend so much jus to call n chat with me. :X its damn ex.

2008-05-30T16:19:00.003+08:00

after running from station to station to get things signed,
last stop, "u will be an ex poly student wte frm today,30 may 08"

after hearing this,off i go.

im so happy that i sucessfully withdraw myself frm sch.

bt e thing is, I MISS MY PEERS!

no more:
Dance
areobics
kick boxing
pilates
NDP
swimming
self declare break
arcade
morning HL milk
Wedges & Nuggets
Yong tau hu

Meet up real soon k.
although its jus a short period of time that we are together.
but we spend solid hrs together.
i treasure it! <3

GFs pls meet up real soon too!
we gonna catch up yea. <3

2008-05-29T23:24:00.000+08:00

im sorry if i've let u down.

2008-05-29T21:46:00.003+08:00

THATS E DECISION.

im dropping out of e course. :)
im like so used to working life, after so long it still feels e same.
i knw its an waste to actually withdraw now as there is no refund of it.
bt doesnt matter, i rather waste tis sem fee than to actually waste 3 yrs in there doing wat i really dont like to.

jus some advice to others.
not all will face this kinda problem.
pls dont work if u gonna persue a higher lvl.
once u start to work, everything changes.
thinking changes,everything.

so think twice before u actually start to work.
if u are working part time still alright.
i actually work for full time, 6 days, long hrs.
and it changes my life.

i will work first which i really love my job :)
then i will have other plans to further my studies. :)

2008-05-28T23:11:00.000+08:00

CONFUSED.
MIXED FEELINGS.
:(

2008-05-27T19:43:00.002+08:00

HELL LOTS OF STRESS!!!

STUDYING IS BRINGING ME SO MUCH OF STRESS!
dunno whats the point am i studying for while have so much problems hitting me.
im really tired of it.
im trying my very best to help myself.
finding ppl who are willing to help me.
i really thanks them alot.:)
bt at e same time im creating problems.
WHICH ONE SHOULD I WEIGHT FIRST?!
im doing gd for myself but i hurting someone.
i felt so guilty.

pls do understand me can?
by jus going to sch, hanging out with clings im already creating problems.
CANT CATCH UP WITH SCH WORK.
PROBLEMS N PROBLEMS.
REALLY LET ME FEEL LIKE DROPPING OUT.
EVEN IF I DROP OUT N WORK, I CREATE CONFLICTS AS WELL.

FUCK IT MAN!

I JUS HOPE THAT EVERYTHING WILL JUS RESOLVE.
PLS PLS PLS.
I BEGGING.
REALLY WORE OUT~

2008-05-26T19:22:00.004+08:00

Got back to work ytd with thia. :)
i tot i would have a hard time getting use to it again.
its like so long i didn't did that already.
luckily, i gt use to it so fast man.
i still mantain my standard. weewoo~! so happy!
last bt not least.
thanks for e great moment.
as well as thanks for everything. :))

2008-05-24T18:55:00.007+08:00

ITS A LONG LONG POST.
finally i've gt e time to blog.
everything had just settled down.
i couldnt believe wat has happened for the past 1 week.
everything is like sososo rush. hitting me one after another.

however, its actually an obsticle for baby n me.

thru wat happended, i know it clearly that i cant live without baby.

3D2N-batam, 3D2N baby's hm, 2D1N CGH
which means i didnt gt a chance to actually rest a while at my home. :(

Batam was really fun with baby ard. making us LOL with his lame joke.
and e topic we talk about can really get all e 6 of us LMAO.

didnt really shop, jus went to 2 shopping malls.

have A&W rootbeer float for 3 days!
and i really miss it now.

stay in hotel holiday inn. it was a nice place there. as u know its a hotel.
n wat a hotel will have. and i met it. :'(

stay at baby's hm for the next 2 days.
and head for sch.
i was at e workshop and baby pop me tis msg and really gt me worried. "i'm going to e hospital now..." i was like OMG..issit real?
called him immediately. he gt a very deep cut in his hand.
as deep as it hits e bone.
e finger was like drop half-way.
i rush down to Changi Gen Hospital frm sch skipping all my lecture.
i jus cant stop crying lol.

although u guys may think it only a finger. when u really love someone n he/she is very important to u. u will feel ur heart aching even it a minor cut.

stay with baby thru out til his discharge.
waited for him outside e OT. i was so wooried that something might goes wrong.
I SMILE WHEN BABY CAME OUT SMILING AT ME.
i gt relieve. :)

for how many days i didnt really gt a gd sleep.

and nw finally~

thanks peers for ur concern. :)
he's alright now. :)

photos to be added in :)

2008-05-16T14:04:00.003+08:00

HELL OF U!
FUCK OFF LA!

HATE U TO E CORE!

NEVER THINK THAT U ARE WRONG
DUNNO ANYTHING JUS SHUT UR MOUTH K.
"DONT ASSUME PLS!"

PLS DONT TREAT THINGS WHICH IS NOT URS AS URS K
ITS SO THICK SKIN OF U.
NEXT TIME I SHALL VIDEO DOWN THE SENORIA OR DO VOICE RECORDING.
EVEN THE OWNER OF THE THING SAY ITS MINE.
SO THEREFORE MIND U!

NV C SUCH A SELF-CENTERED PERSON LIKE U BEFORE.
NEVER IN MY LIFE!
CONGRAT! U ARE THE FIRST ONE! JY EH :D

2008-05-13T22:40:00.003+08:00

has been out n enjoying for the pass few days.
wanted to study on fri night. test on tues.
ended up. as usual. out for party. haha!

went cheese prata shop, to have supper.
then off to st.james,powerhouse!
im a member now! WEEWOO~! credits to iris. thanks yea. :))
hahas. bt i haven gotta e card yet. :(

sat,went for movies, iron man. its nice!
n there is this guy uh, dashing across me as if there is no space to walk thru. LOL. he saw my damn shocking face. hes none other than FJP. wth.

BOBDOG CANDY, MINI COLA!

BACK TO OUR KINDO TIMES!!

BABY TRYING TO SQUEZZE ME OUT OF E PIC!

nAHX! NO CHANCES! *DUN SAD LA BABY. :(

sun,went farmway, saw this mininature pincher tat i love so much! wanted to snap pic bt no phototaking is allow. hope to bring him back, bt baby's objection make it impossible. gonna brain-wash him!HoHoHo! went east coast to have seafood. :))

countdown 4 days to batam! this gonna be e 2nd time im off for trip with baby. :))
im so excited! its not e things there that got me so excited. its that i LOVE goin off for trip with baby. :))

ILOVEYOUBABY.

WHAT HAPPENS IN VEGAS!

2008-05-09T18:47:00.004+08:00

WHAT HAPPENS IN VEGAS!
with baby to catch it.
this is simpily AWESOME movie! rate it 5/5 man!
its funny n touching as well.
i wont reveal e details here.
u guys definately gt to watch it! DONT MISS IT!
ppl in e cinema actually STOOD UP TO CLAP!
Hope i would get a chance to go to vegas n pull e same jackpot machine c if i would get the huge amount! Haha! daydream la me.
GO GO GO!!!!
ENJOY! :D

i wanna catch all this as well.
iron man
dance of the dragon
the hottie n the nottie
n more coming up. :D haha!

2008-05-04T18:37:00.002+08:00

hahas. ytd finally done with all those assignments n reports.
no worries for tml. :)
went swim n sun-baking with baby again.
love it love it.
trying hard to get my stamina back. (in swimming n of cos nt in running)
guess wat. im slightly more tan. weewoo~!
i gonna keep it up.
new nick for baby-satay.
while tanning baby treated himself as if he's a satay to endure all e heat. lol!

gonna swim n tan in sch on wed i guess. :)

im going batam on 17 to 19 may with baby n alot more.
gonna buy lots n lots of stuff there.
hopefully there will be nice n cheap stuff over there. :))
and and... hopefully baby is paying for that. haha! :P
so that i can buy more stuff. coundown 2 weeks.

love it love it:))

2008-05-02T21:50:00.002+08:00

sch today was like damn bored la.
it was so dead.
bt after sch report discussion was fun.
we turn library into a chill out n noisy place.Haha!
snap snap in library.

and i finally met adeline in sch! she is sososo sexy man! espcially with e tattoo on her chest.

afterwhich,i rush off for swim. :) been swimming this few days.
healthy lifestyle eh. swimming, aerobics, dance. weewoo~!
today's sun was so gd bt i miss it!!! argh! when i reach e pool was like mr sun is gonna go off to bed.
bt luckily im a little tan.:)

hopefully no sunburn yea. baby gotta it. haha! :p

:))

2008-05-01T23:26:00.004+08:00

jus a quick reflection on ppl.
i felt so sad for ppl who dont appreciate others help for their own gd.
ppl who think that they are absoultly right n highly of themselves are ppl who gonna fall in their life.
hope u guys keep this in mind. "no one is perfect."
so if ppl are trying to give a helping hand at least keep them in mind with thanks.

haha. enough of those stuff. n coming up next.. my happy moment!! weewoo~!

went chevrons ktv with baby ytd.
it was fun eventhough its only e two of us.

as we are actually celebrating our 2 yrs 7 mths anni.
i jus love being with baby. feeling loved n secured is real gd. :))

and for e long await, finally gt e chance to go swim with baby.
and and and... im FINALLY abit tan then before.
great great! im gonna tan in sch as well when i gt e chance. haha!

1st session of ladies hrs (aerobics/kick boxing) was nice.
i simply love e fun there. and at e same time burning all e unwanted fats.lol.
gonna go on every session. haha its silly action bt it real nice k!

jus some ramdom pics yea.

maths is like hell. kill me man.

e koufu regular. lol.

camwhoring during lesson. :))

lastly, gd nite. off to bed.

love it love it!!

2008-04-28T00:24:00.002+08:00

since long i last went town with only me n baby. :)
went to far east to have our fav. chicken set that we crave for long.
yummy!
went ard to shop. :)
ended up we didnt really shop. lol.
i just love those moment we spend together. :))
jus some ramdom pics yea.

bought this santa barbara bag. :))loves!

lastly, goodnight!

updates updates :))

2008-04-26T13:52:00.005+08:00

finally i've gt e chance to relax n have fun after a long week.
went sentosa with my peers.
it was fun bt sad things is some gt to leave early.

we did alot of activities there bt only a little pics was taken.

all of us was so busy with ours hands playing ard.

cycling, volley balls, freezbee, magic tricks, lastly kayaking.

i love kayaking la, it was so exciting.chasing ard in e sea.
e guys so lousy la, cant evn catch up with us. lol. haha!
hands was tiring bt it worth the fun. :))

i hurt my lips during the fun. :( bleed.

meeet my baby at vivo after sentosa. and we head home. :))

in sch everything is quite ok.
except for all the works we gt to do.

ya btw,im in e dance company, i love it so much!
bt e stretching n stuff can kill. lol.
i gonna survive thru, n shine. :))

imissmygirlfriends.

had a catch up n disturbing session on msn jus few days ago.haha.
planning to have an outing on 10 may. still pending.

im looking forward to the meet up. :))

everything~hahas.

2008-04-14T22:36:00.002+08:00

hihi.
this gonna be a long long post.
cos im updating all at one shot. enjoy :)

for the pass few days.
baby meet me after work.
so sweet so him. :) i totally love the way u treat me now.
like a princess yea. :)

jus few days ago, i so-called quitted my job.
i kinda miss the fun. :(
fyi its an fund raising prog.
BUT THIA WE GONNA GO BACK FOR IT RITE?!
EAGLES ROX YEA. JUICE!
went mindscafe for a farewell cum gathering chill out.
thanks to all the leaders. :)

today was the first day of sch.
sch was fun n exciting yet tiring.
actually fall asleep for one of the lesson. my god its first day and im doing that!
baby was afraid i will be attracted to other guy in sch.
BUT BABY LET ME TELL U THIS. YOU GONNA BE MY LAST GUY WHOM I SHARE MY LIFE WITH!
SO DONT WORRY BABY. ;)

weewoo! had a great fall today.
same things happened.
it was rainning, i was in my black flip flop.
and it goes bum! bum! i fall tiwce my new lappy fall with me as well. :(
its suppose to be a light weight one. however, new one come with everyting.
it den become so damn heavy that makes me fall. >.<

baby gonna pay for some of my expenses. as sch really occupied me.
and he wants me to rest after sch. as my sch was sososo far.
SO SWEET OF HIM! I LOVE YOU BABY! SO THOUGHFUL SO U. :) mUACKS~

fuck up!

2008-04-02T18:42:00.002+08:00

im sosososo confused.
shld i stay or shld i leave.
so fuck up k.
u were once hers. (as wat she said)
u didnt even treat me that gd k.
who e hell u really want.

i really hate this kinda feeling.
the things i ask u, u given me an incorrect ans without feeling guilt or whatsoever.
till i really believe in u.
i found it aint the correct ans.
i hate being a fool.

for now i guess i've to restrict myself.
i wont believe in what u say.
i will jus treat it as a ans.
i wont take it to heart.
i wont convince myself.

times when u treat me well im really touch n u melt my heart.

it makes me hate u so much when i found out that u actually did that to me.

urs words didnt tally wif ur action.

WHAT THE FUCK!

2008-04-01T16:32:00.004+08:00

IN SHORT. I HATE YOU!
y bother to come n bother me when u guys are having fun out there.
i really hate u for saying that.
do u know how hurt is it?

the song u like is actually link to her.
dun wan me to go look for u cos she there.
uh. must be very loving la.

everytime this kinda thing happen to me.
im always the last one to find out.
and when i found out is always the time when im so in love with u.

i really tired. can someone convince me.

fuck off la u! everything is over alright!

2008-03-26T13:53:00.003+08:00

so long since i last touch the com.
i was so looking forward to last thurs zouk wif jack,sw n dear.
who knows, high fever just break out again. back aching got even worse.
cant even text or call. so dear gt to text jack that we aint goin.

at first the plan was to go zouk. but ended up, i was in NUH A&E.
later to ward. 5 days in there was super duper boring n torturing.
uncountable jabs. on drips. nothing by mouth.
as back aching turns out to be something bad.

lucky dear was there to acc me nearly throughout the 5 days.
i really pity dear. bt i jus couldn't live there without him.
gfs came to visit as well as their bf. and of cos my family. frens who text me. u guys really brighten up my days. thanks i love u guys!

gt to stay home for the next 8 days. any fever outbreak again. back to NUH.
hai. been drinking lots n lots of water recently. i learn my lesson.

I LOVE YOU MY DEAR! THANKS BABY!

2008-03-14T16:24:00.002+08:00

Movie Ytd. Step Up 2 And Rule #1. damn it la. Being stop by the staff. she wanted to check my ic as Rule #1 is NC16. i was like "huh? my ic? ohh..ok." and when alex ask e person do u need mine? No is the ans. omg la. u mean i dont even look like im 16?

went for an interview today, as usual, fill in e application form.
handed in to the person to look through. instead of saying how he will contact me for 2nd interview, he goes.. "OMG! U ARE SINGAPOREAN?! ARE U SURE NOT?" dont i look like i am one?

kinda weird this few days. do i look weird i wonder?
when i got home just now guess whats e first thing i did.
i look into e mirror for so long.. and.. started camwhoring. lol.

meeting him for dinner. :) so i gtg.

im looking forward to this sun gf sleepover at my hse. :)

:)

2008-03-06T16:02:00.002+08:00

after much reflection, single isn't a bad thing yea.
i thought i would have a hard time getting over it bt who knows after long long hrs of crying everything seems like go numb.

seems like its hard for me to get into another relationship.
i dont believe in l.o.v.e anymore.
been hurt again and again.
for the time being, i jus wanna be single. thats all.
bt i have to admit that i still love you.

*No work. No sch. No bf.*
market/breakfast with mummy.
out with frens.
ktv wif cousin.
taiwan dramas.
clubbing.
msn.
thats bout my life recently.

SPLASH! Weewoo~! had a great fall ytd.
flat on e floor. its like im in e swimming pool la.
face was splash with water. inside out was wet.
i hear laughter from passerby. SO embarrass.
Thanks to Mr Alex who held me up.
wat a unlucky day man!

pray hard that tml everything gonna go on smoothly for me.
theres a event at chinatown and im goin to be the emcee. :)

finally~

2008-02-26T18:56:00.003+08:00

now,i jus wanna let nature take its course.
i'm really wore out. tired.

if u turly love someone, u would giv him/her ur most u can give,care,concern and protect. and not hurting him/her.

think back,the incident that happened. im so worried, i care about u.bt i hate myself for cant be able to give a helping hand.

at the same time u did not want to go into that matter. you say u wouldnt be that childish. but now i realise, u r giving ur protection.

when im feeling low, not feeling well, u aren't here for me.

u r not the one whom i know earlier on whom i woo for.(i dare to say i woo for u. as i would like to get every moment of it by myself.)

the one who tease me nearly bout everything.
the one who sweet talk me.
the one who become my supper khaki.
the one who always missed me.
the one who always rush to meet me (when u r in NS)
the one who is there when im sick.
the one who acc me thru nearly everyday.
the one who share a room with me.
the one who i cried for when u left for camp.
the one who called me every night.
the one who even care what i wore when out with frens.
the one who scolded me when im in the wrong.
the one who care for me.
the one who called up many many times in a day to check on me.
the one who rush me home when its late.
the one who send me home when its late.
the one who walk me to ur home.

i miss you. hugs. kisses.

you are now a totally different person whom i know.
for the first yr its like sososo sweet.
following yr was fading...

when we first started for like jus few months. u gave me a bomb that u r going to ns. i drop tears immediately.
after u when in, i cried everynight.
same things happended everynight for the past 1 yr 10 months.
finally i was so happy that i've make it throught.:)
finally i can see u everyday.
but things didn't go so smoothly.
things starts happening.

till now im really tired.

hai.. whatever. im jus goin to let nature take its course.
nice recall-ing.

here, my greatest wishes to all the couples out there, cherish. :)

alright, im going to have my meals. :)

im in a gonna shop til drop den shop again kinda mode. LOL.

2008-02-04T23:10:00.000+08:00

:(

hate to hear or c tat word starting wif D shoo off!
again n again.
1st bomb. nw 2nd bomb.
i will tolerate n withstand it. hahas i've no idea when i will fall.
i gonna train my patience n being sososo generous.
bt please dun take me for granted.
i bet no one will be like me who didn't make a fuss bt suffer all by myself.
im trying real hard to don't take it to heart. hope u will automatic.

:)

SHOPPING SPREE!!
have been shopping quite alot yea.
i've got everything that is in my list before CNY.
YEA! new red phone that i like. W910i bt hubby gt e bronze one la. damn nice.
so jealous la.

boom! -$800 plus in my bank within 2 days yo.
that was fast.

i've gt everything inplace n ready for cny finally.
switch room with my mum yea.
my new room is done up. :)

nw i cant finnally slow down alittle. haha. nt that stress up anymore.

i need to go tan again!seems like no diff la. this time round i gonna use e dark tanning oil instead of golden which makes no diff la.

more shopping after CNY. :D

advance Happy New Year!
Cheers!

im really stress up

2008-01-27T00:34:00.000+08:00

at first was work giving problem.
customer jus dun understand.
was so fed up already.
another news make me even fed up.

so decided go ikea with sis to shop for deco stuff for my rm hopefully i will relax abit.
sis plan to go chervon ktv to chill & destress alittle.
bt everything was so diff in e end.
i've gt even stress.i didn't went to chervon in e end.
actually bought ur fav ikea hotdog for u.
don't mention already.

still gt to think about which course i gt to choose deadline is coming mon.
still gt other stuff following up waiting for me to decide.
im really stress up.

room still left unpack unclear.

CNY stuff are still all nt ready yet.

i really need time to take a break.

i dunno y. for me its like its always wrong to show ur true feelings.
always act as if its e other way.
n everything will be fine.

i would nv show my true feelings again.
nt e true me. :)

'dun need care' this 3 words really hurt me damn lot lot. . .

i won't ask anything in detail anymore.
i dun wish kinda things to happen again.

its best not to know e truth & be like a idiot.

sobbing.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANDY!

2008-01-19T14:19:00.000+08:00

ytd was sis b'dae. finally 13 la! lol.
dad finally discharge from hospital after so long.
jus in time to make it for sis
little celebration at hm den out we go.
at first was planning to have a bowling session.
but ended up change of plan goin Hometeam NS for ktv.
sis fren alan gt to fetch us back to change as they have a dress code.
lol. is like playing rounding.

afterwhich, reached Hometeam NS. OMG! Eee. all aunties & uncle.
When chervon instead.
e ktv there is super cheap. as well as e facilities is much much better than kbox.
e first thing u notice is they do not have damage or torn sofa la.
small room was like = to kbox big room. lol.

think im goin to go there often rather than kbox.
was there til 3am. sis knock out in e ktv rm. cant imagine la we was like super noisey & she was able to go ZZZzzz.

sad to say mr ant didn't join us. :(

overall was fun :)

SHE'S 13!

CANDID SHOT!

CHEERS!

2008-01-17T23:49:00.001+08:00

Firstly i wanna thanks MS CYNTHIA for her help to change my blog skin.
Thank yo!

Jus came back from co. jap buffet. wow! e udon is supper nice!LOve it Love it!

play pool at function rm yea i won! Hahas!
Shoo~e irritating fellow.

tml sis 13 b'dae. cake already ordered. wanna have steamboat bt sis was scare of getting FAT. LOL!! wat about me yo! BUFFET! even worse!!

anyway, i nv eat dinner for 2 days already.

i've no appetite. ALot of things are messing up my life.
few more days to release of result. bt i still cant get an ans for u.

its hard to find a pic of me where i face straight to e camera la. peers who noe me well will find tat.
i'm submitting my pics to enrol as wedd model. Hahas! u must be wondering bout my height. yea they doesn't look at height. :) introduce by my collegue. bt whether is true tat it can be done or not still dunno yet.

im trying real hard nt to msg u tat often.
nt to ask u so many question.
others feel sad for me for wat im goin thru.
bt i noe i really do love him.
im gonna go for him.
unless something can really hold me on.

!uoy al ffo kcuf

wat an unlucky day!

2008-01-13T18:15:00.000+08:00

went uncle hse for cousin baby's full mth.
on e way back i think i have donated a 50 bucks to e ground.
may i noe who's e lucky one to pick it up yo? HAHA!

found out something which i nv wish would happen again.
whole day was like SHIT.
kept running in my mind.
all this are expected frm e way u acted.
nt even a msg frm u whole day.
bt tat person gt it! wtf.
this kind feeling is like HELL alright.
and u was like, as if nth happened.

i having a kinda urge to vex everything out!
bt tat woud turn me to another kinda person already.
i dun wish to turn to wat am i few yrs back.
i wish i could jus setle down asap.
bt nth seems tat simple.
i really wanna VEX OUT!!!!
DAMN IT!

WAT A FUCK UP DAY!
LIES.

Looonggg since i laasst update.

2008-01-13T01:20:00.000+08:00

for the past few days was like morning shine, im out already.
till late nite den im back hm.

OT & meetings till 11plus in e nite.

celebrated yoke's bdae at taka seoul garden.

poly open hse at NYP was a great one compared to SP.
CCAs are e main urge tat i wanna join NYP. hahas!

bugis & town after work to get my clothes,bags,etc.
last week cost me a bomb.
glad that i've everything settle.

weewoo~ last min DXO was fun time wif sis & cousin.
nv fail to enjoy dancing with my sis ard yea.
i think same goes to her.

fail to meet up wif shermin due to work.
sorry yea. next date yea?

chinatown n ikea shopping with family. :)

I WANNA GET TANNED BEFORE CNY!
need some touch up for my hair too.
:) i need plenty of time!!

alright, gtg.
tc everyone.

' ' sweet temptation ' '

2007-12-30T13:39:00.000+08:00

:) Fridge inplace in my room.
my life always surround with easy acess of food.haha!
bought lots of sweets & chocolates.
always ready to serve. :)
thanks to my lucky dear. hahas!

:)our 3rd countdown is jus a day ahead.

nv forget bout enjoying.
kbox wif collegues later :) jus few hrs ahead :)

New Year Coming!
NEW SHOPPING LISTS! :D
NEW CRAVING!
NEW FOR ALL THE STUFF! BUT NOT A NEW HUBBY!hehee :)

alright shall stop here.
heading for preparation for kbox tonight!
CHEERS FOR NEW YEAR!
blog next year.:)

2007-12-26T22:57:00.000+08:00

back to work today.kinda tired.
spent christmas with hubby.
its our 3rd christmas! weewoo~
gone for hubby co. dinner at hyatt hotel.
love the fondue there! yummy!
hubby gt just balm size beef at 118 lol.
everything was great!
den head to hardrock cafe.
woo.the singer there was best!
love e atmosphere rather than club man.
so unlike me when i say i dun wanna club.haha.
i felt ur love! i really love it hubby!
i love you hubby!!

for the past few days..

2007-12-22T02:41:00.000+08:00

yea. finally we've gt e time to spend together.
weewoo!! i was able to spend whole day with hubby.
gone MOS with jp n yh!cabbed home. jus a few seconds when we gt up e cab, the uncle ask..r u 2 bro n sis or couple? lol. he said tat we 2 look real alike. haha! jus a few secs n its dark uncle are able to tel. omg la. he mention-"ur eyes are same.face are same.smile are same. lol.everything is same la!! haha!! u 2 gt husband n wife look!!"
movie e next day! yea.
i love the moment we spend together. i wanna hav more of tat alright hubby.

go straight for dance rehersal at victoria.
wore out after tat.

tml e actual day.hope everything gonna go smoothly.

when are my gf gonna be free to meet up yo?
next yr? gosh la. we cant even meet up for dinner?

some pics of my dance lol. so chinna. dun be shock peers!

look at my bone.omg la. its so ugly.

dear dear. no one can replace u. no one wins my heart except u.

iloveyou more than ilove myself.

i've gain weight, bt where hav my fats gone too?!

well prepared for tml.
hopefully we are able to make it for supper!

Cheers!

2007-12-16T01:47:00.000+08:00

Back to dance.
Omg la. im ache everywhere.
so loooong since i last go for dance prac.
im in need of time.
everything is like so rush.
eg. today.
morning shine,shoo to bugis to get something.
cabbed down for dance at paya lebar.
cabbed back to bugis to shop for christmas gifts.
everything was so RUSH!
ytd too. cabbed down to queenstown after work.
den cabbed down to bukit batok for dance.
LOL! i spend so much $ on cab.
spend $ to get time.
haha. bt its ok la.
at least i've gt something out of the rush.
finally got the watch,dress,guess bag tat i like. :) hehee.

Hey gf!! christmas present is ready yo!
gt to get everything done by today. as alot of things are coming up real soon.
firstly OT almost everyday!!
19-chill out
20-sentosa
21-rehersal at victoria
22-actual day
23-tentative
24-christmas eve celebration(pending)
25-hubby's co D&D
OMG! it gonna be a fully booked week.

had been Zzz late waking up early.
here come my fren, mr/ms panda. :(

can i have some time to relax yo.

less time with my hubby. :'(

i gonna endure all the suffering.
after this year, hope everything gonna slow down a little. :)

im walking at a pace whereby i would jus trip n fall easily.
hope im able to handle it. MINDSET!! LOL!!

2007-12-10T23:08:00.000+08:00

nevertheless.
i still have some wonderful time.
for the pass few days.

finally meet up with yh after bout 8 mths.
went for dinner n kbox.
jus a days after, i went k box again.
haha! theres something still stay unchange for me n yh! the sentosa experience.LOL.
we shall c for our coming outing again. couldn't believe tat we r tat unlucky!

finally im a little tan. hope tis would last.
went swimming with sis. :)
jus ytd i went k box again. lol.

3 times in a week.

jus some random pics.

i wanna go swim! tan! ride! shop!
i goin back to dance. :)
hopefully nth crops up. :)

OT STARTS TML :(

2007-12-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

EVERYTHING is like falling on me.
im real stress! depression on e way.

EVERYTHING jus doesn't goes well.

wat my decision gonna to be, everything is up to me.
u ain't give any advise. nth.
i have to handle everything on my own.
its hard to giv a definate ans.
bt at least giv me some advise rather den finding me irritating.
i dun get it when others have someone to share their problems with, and slove together bt y not me?
EVERYTHING is getting hard.
im so damn STRESS!
sometimes i ask myself lots n lots of question. bt i jus dun understand y, and i couldn't believe it.

ARGH!!! STRESS!!! EVERYTHING IS JUS NOT RIGHT!

I KNOW MYSELF WELL. i might fail to withstand all this. anytime i might jus collapes.
u ain't here when i needed u most.

2007-11-28T22:02:00.000+08:00

no one seem to appreciate wat i've done.
u r showing me e kinda "dun giv a damn" attitude.
everything is goin back again. everything has become a routine for us.
i dun wish to have e same ending as before. pls no. i noe i wont be able to overcome or get over it again.

i m so envy those who had a partner who wil always be with u.
share ur laughter or cry with u. i miss that.
who enjoy every moment with u.
have a date with u.
everything with u.

i ask myself wat do i've nw.
haha. wat a joke.
everything is so diff. far diff.
everytime i called. i hope to hear u feeling the same as me.
bt wat i get was a down tone.
totally f off.
i dun even noe wats happening.
wats goin on wif ur daily life.
im so useless!
everything is like following the pace where we started with all the unhappiness.
i dun wanna lose u again dear. can u assured me that?
y cant i get wat im supposed to recieve when i give in so much.
while all the credits goes to someone who done nth.
wth is this.

being a gf who noes nth bout wats happening.
im feeling so sux of myself.
do i ever exist?

its hard living with this.

i dun wish to have tat ending again.
i hope we can really compromise talk things out and become a better partner.
:)
iloveyoudear.
praying tat everything would turn better.
u r here wif me. bt ur soul aren't.

Yea! im back! everything is BACK!

2007-11-25T22:41:00.000+08:00

Yea! im back frm chalet.

actually im back ytd.

wasn't able to blog.

i love e moment there.

at first was like so akward

bt haha! everything was like so right in the end.

hubby, i love u tons!

thx for goin wif me!

OMG words jus cant express the feelings i've gt right nw!

ArgH!!!

Went Escape!

He's my qualified driver!

i feel so save for him to drive me den i drive him.

lol. dun b shock peers its jus a go kart.Haha!

i love e fun time we had.

Dear! we gonna go again k!

i will drive tis time round n c wats gonna happen lol!

I love INVERTER! WOHOO!

Tanning Swimming BBQ Buffet Gambling Escape Chit Chat Ton= Wore out

Finally im a little tan! Haha! bt i dun think tats enough to last for even a week!

Haha!

Took quite lots if pics. bt im so lazy to upload all at one go.

so yea. here's a few.

Haha! we look so alike!

i gonna upload more when pics are ready yea!

F*** !

2007-11-22T21:57:00.001+08:00

MY WORK LOAD IS GETTING MORE N MORE!

everything about tat u came sharon sharon sharon.

all day long.

aren't u tired of tat?!

aren't u capable to jus go n get it done?!

its such a simple tasks!

don't have means don't have.

the net dun even recieve hw m i goin to recieve?!

im nt god pls. stop barking me to get it for u.

stop barking me to tel u whether i receive it not.

im nt a god who can rmb so many emails add pls.

pls kindly go check the book.

i m really stress k.

if u wan e particular one pls go get it done n jus inform me.

pls don't do placing order kind.

jus pass me a piece of paper n tats all.

im e one who gonna receive/ send /reply.

EVERYTHING.

everyone need to use it.

pls be understanding i m not tat free as before.

i cant b e one who u think u can get n instant noddle straight away!

u wan it straight away go get it urself.

Nv mind bout tat.

ppl are kind to u.

n this is hw u treat ppl back.

my customer log n complain bout me.

and guess wat! im nt e one who ans the call n i get e complain!

is u who ans it!

u bring tis up to me.

none of my business n i get complain.

nvm bout tat.

i kept quite.

when im in doubt, ppl r trying to help me wif it, u gt e cheek to come n BUSYBODY!

u bring tis up. u kept quite. i tolerate.

i've doubt,u dun help its ok.

instead! u jus care about hw wat happen n jus laugh ur way thru.

WTF!

u r so _____.

i really cant stand it when everyone goes sharon this sharon tat.

dun u noe hw to use a mouse to click.

damn it!

Alright, enough.

after this shoutout.

everything gt to be as usual.

haha. im goin to a chalet.

to enjoy!

i hope we can really cling well tml yea. everything is gonna be a show or its gonna be e true life,

its all depends on u.

iloveyou.

ArGH!!

2007-11-22T21:42:00.000+08:00

Ytd nite after work there's a buffet nite.
Japanese cusine kind.
the set up was like WOW! i saw so shock la.
unfortunately, cant take pics of tat.
wat a waste.
When e buffet starts i was like OMG!
Omg nt bcos of the food was so nice.
bt becos im sososososo afraid of buffet!
oh pls im only here for nearly 5 mths, n im so scare of buffet.
Nv wil i die of hunger.
LOL!
NO MORE BUFFET PLS!
FORBEAR.

IM FAT! Need to go on diet! bt its so hard where my job needs me to eat n eat .
"u will nv noe when u nv eat" OMG

:)

2007-11-20T23:02:00.000+08:00

ytd nite was such a peaceful nite for me.
i was so surprise tat u came back hm.
tis was e first time i slp so peaceful since things happened.
i hope this kinda nite would last.
im wondering would it be e same for tonight.

quite wore out for today, after hrs of meeting.
although its quite a SHORT one already.
reach hm ard 10 plus.
done wif all e necessary stuff.
and i shall wait whether it wil be e same for tonight yea.
hope u wont dissapoint me.
:)
iloveyou.

Half day for tml yea!
:D

COUGH IS KILLING ME!
A WEEK I THINK!

CheerS!

2007-11-18T23:35:00.000+08:00

it was great today for me.
finally we gt e chance to meet up.
althought its jus a very short one.
im happy enough.
feeling akward at first.
im sure u do.
natural little actions shows some care n concern.
i LOVE being wif u.
i hope we could stay tat way or even better.
i feel e fear of lost when we are saying goodbye.
sorry for ytd nite.
i dunno wat im doing.
everything was like so sudden.
maybe im too stress over those stuff.
ppl do observe my changes infact our changes.
cant concentrate or stay focus on everything i do.
everything is like linked to u u and u.
i may seem to be fine when im out.
when im alone in our memorable rm,
everything starts again.
the stuff i need to adapt to n live with is so difficult for me.
im hoping everyday to be a better day for me.
i dun wan to feel like wat i feel ytd.
no more pls.
i couldn't handle it.

我一直都在

2007-11-18T02:17:00.000+08:00

遥望着你背影
有孤单太苍白
我多么想陪着你
走过人山人海
当天空变灰白
你的忧伤澎湃
我多么想走进你
紧锁的心海
我一直都在你身后等待
等你有一天回过头看
我我的笑送给你希望你快乐
你的难过都给我
关于你的一切我都
好好收藏着
等你有一天能感觉到我
就算我在你世界
渺小像一颗尘埃
我也会给你
我所有的光和热
我鼓起勇气呐喊
你要听得见
我不许你再孤单
要你拥抱我给的温暖

those words above are for u.
dear. we started wif dui de ren.
and we shall end wif this.
cheers!

2007-11-17T21:14:00.000+08:00

long since last post.
recently, i finally can meet up and catch up wif frens.
haha. have a great time catching up wif each other.
ended up nearly doze off during work la.

although i do feel weird without u ard.
bt im still fine.
tot i would feel like hell after u gone.
tat was jus for few days.
nw its quite alright already.
im use to it.
im still recovering.
and u did tat to me.
really cant take it la
who m i to u.
a msg supplier?
do u ever spare some thought for me?
do u noe hw sux i feel?
haha! its like helping ur loves one to love others. wth.

ppl might c frm their view.
n tot tat im e one who is wild n meet up wif guys.
they are jus my frens.
my concious is clear.
pls make things clear before u guys make any conclusion.

Haha! imagine i am facing those who r getting ROM and celebrating their wedding everyday.
do u noe hw stress n hard it is to face it.
still gt to act tat u r happy for them while u r really down deep inside.

its also so silly to do wat im doing nw la.
it don't worth bt i still hold on.

ps: my love for u is still there althought u didn't treat me well.
im alright with anything as long as im with you.
bt pls be reasonable.
hope one day u will come awake.

When you're gone.

2007-11-13T19:32:00.000+08:00

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floorAnd they smell just like you,
I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe
I need to feel you here with me, yeah

totally describe us.
cheers for friendship yea. :)
thanks for accompany me thru the 2yr plus.
i had a great time withyou.
go ahead with wat u wanna do n i woludn't interfere anymore.
i would say its damn hard for me to overcome n get over everything.
we are already so into life partner kinda relationship.
now i noe tis is ur so called long relationship.
i dunno hw u r able to get over everything jus like tat.
nth can stop me frm doin anything except u.
i wil be waiting. i noe it might be a no turn back way. bt i will still stay for u.
i hope e reason u giv me is nt an excuse to other stuff. u shld noe wat i mean.
hope those things u told me are true.

imissyou.

iloveyou.

take great care.

2007-11-11T01:21:00.000+08:00

went mos ytd :)

went to crystal jade for dinner wif him.

everything is like changed.
dun care bout me.
dun even bother bout me.
aren't loving as before.

small little action are gone.

can i get more love.
im real hurt by u.
went void deck to settle my feelings myself.
u dun even care bout my whereabout.

meet gf.
couldn't control n broke down infront of them.
hah i m so foolish.
its like i try so hard to get back.
n u down even make a move.

went x zone wif gf.
its like crazy la.
'SSG cynthia'
Haha!
next round k gf!

i feel like hell.
wil u even care for me if something serious happen?

''St James

2007-11-08T12:55:00.000+08:00

Went St James Power House ytd wif some of my colleague!

It was so damn fun there!

after work tired?>>nono.

we was super hyper to get there.

Gone to eat the super BIG Burger at vivo.

2 person gt to share one.

den we head to st james.

Non-stop drinking.

i drank a jug n a cup myself.

this was the first time i drank so much man.

grooving with them was so fun!

a guy on the platform jus giv a kick on my butt. LOL!

colleague was ask by a guy. Haha!

all the weirdo la.

think we gonna go there often la.

everyone love it except tim was so shy la.LOL

Enjoyed! =)

=)

2007-11-07T00:44:00.000+08:00

2007-11-05T00:09:00.000+08:00

i will make it a short one for this post.
as wat i need to say is already being said. bt turns to deaf ears.

for the pass few days.
life was like hell for me.
nevertheless, i still enjoy my outing wif frens.

Hey! Cynthia! Happy Birthday Yo!

fear attacks when loneliness exist.
jus using shopping spree to overcome things.

i might seem tough outside. bt weak inside.
i dunno wat would happen if things unpleasent really happen.
i cant stand the stress n non-stop questioning by the family.
nth is important n worth living unless u exist in my life.

absence makes the heart goes_______.dead.

IT REALLY HURTS!

2007-11-01T22:42:00.000+08:00

Ytd wasn't in e mood to post. so today ya.

Ytd n e day before ytd was sux!

HURT. FEELING SO DAME SUX. FEELING LIKE HELL.

everything jus gone!

peers are there to console me.

sorry if i nv reply u guys on msn ytd.

cos i wasn't in e good terms to talk to u guys. so sorry.

bt i noe there r some who is nt trying to show any concern is jus tat they r so busybody.

u noe who u r. i dun hav to mention it.

Hey! thx for being there!

u really brighten up my day ytd.

haha! wif all e u la u la dumb dumb gum gum is making me smile.

thx for being so caring.

nice time catching up wif each other. :)

nv even slp n i jus go to work.
carrying those kinda feelings to work is SOSOSO stress full.
Full Wif Work Loads.
its hard to concentrate on my work while im thinking of wat happen 24/7
i still hav to struggle through.
i dun think u noe hw i feel hw sux i feel hw stress n tired im.
as u r jus having fun out there.
i noe wat u r trying to do to me.
EVERYTHING is e same as wat has HAPPENDED.
bt at least i dun hide frm u.
i will always rmb wat had happended.
peers r so caring while u dun even giv a damn to me.

LASTLY, I WILL ALWAYS RMB E ASS WHO BRING TIS UP TO US!
THANKS ALOT FOR UR KINDNESS! UR DISAPPEARANCE WILL BE GREATLY APPRECIATED.

2007-10-30T13:20:00.000+08:00

Finally, i finished my eng n maths paper!
tis yr i able to complete it without dozing of la LOL
damn it for last yr.
haha we can talk so well wif each other when we dun even noe each other name in e first place!
hope to c u guys ard soon yea!
pray hard tis yr im able to make it thru as i nv really prepare for it.

haiz. gd tat i hav finish my O papers.
bt i gtg back to work TML!! damn soon isn't it.
wth man! dun even gt e time to chill a little.

for e pass few days u have changed.
i dunno whether issit tat u dun wanna disturb me while im mugging,
or there are other reason to it.
nt even a call frm u.
its so unlike e past. so diff. u wouldn't even wanna cal mi i think.
when i giv u a call. it seem like u r rushing to hang up.
talk to like wat. everything is a no.
hack care is e word.
well, u r goin to ord real soon.
we shall c wat happen den.

*Do unto others as you would others do unto you.

moody day~

2007-10-28T17:19:00.000+08:00

haiz. so moody today.
finally started my last min mugging for tml papers.
BUT, in a jiffy, i dozed off. lol.
think tml will be a shit for me.
already wasted one yr.
shldn't be so particular bout wat course to take.
think i jus hav to use last yr result to enter.

family are having fun at chalet while im here to voice out.

jus a very normal day.

*HIS BETTER HALF wannabe! =)

28'10'07

2007-10-28T00:45:00.000+08:00

Finally, we gather. Bt where's e other 2 ladies!

To e 2 ladies: pls make urself free for e next meet up alright?!
Miss U 2 la!!

Updated 'info' frm them. haha!